One February 12, 2011 it will be one year since I began my weight loss journey. And I feel like at a year later...I have to start ALL OVER AGAIN! Do you remember being a kid in school & leaving to go on summer vacation? Then when school starts again, your new teacher says "I'm just going to give you a little quiz to see what you remember from your last school year"....Well I'm fresh from vacation & I'm currently sitting at my desk staring at a blank sheet of paper. It seems like EVERYTHING I researched and taught myself in the last year about eating healthy, proper snacks, measuring my food, being active, delayed gratification & self-sacrifice has gone straight out the window.
I started the journey @ 346. I reached my lowest weight (on the journey, not of my life) around the end of Nov/Early Dec (285)....now I'm at 294. Yup I gained 10lbs. NOOO BUENO!!!!!! I made a vow to myself that I would never reach 300lbs again & if I seriously don't get a handle on my life ASAP...I'm gonna be there again. Like I mentioned in my last post, I hit a rough patch & started comfort eating again. Soooo i def gotta start journaling or reading leisure books or raising pet guinea pigs or something to distract myself from life/relieve stress. Anything but burgers, chicken, & pizza.....
People have told me often that I was a motivation to them & blah blah blah, well it ain't all roses. This weight loss stuff is TOUGH! (well when you decide to do it the natural way). And I'm a shining example right now of how easy it is to get off track & fall back into old and familiar habits. I did good for 10months or so...but I had a relapse. So just like any "addict" or someone struggling to regain control over their life...you take each new day as a chance to start over. Make better decisions than yesterday. Not beating myself up at all about it, just sometimes when you put things out into the atmosphere it makes you accountable. There's no doubt that I'll reach my goal weight....trust me. The only question is WHEN! lol. But yeah i'mma def get there :)
Wanna know something sad/ironic/funny....I'm typing this post as I'm eating a burger & watching The Biggest Loser -________- #DoBetterMonique.....
You are going to make it girl, just like you said. I believe in you!
ReplyDeleteLove you! ..this is the first time I am reading your blog, and it encouraged me. Don't give up on your goals or yourself. Thanks!