God knew I needed a reminder....

A few years ago I hit a really rough patch. Was trying to heal mentally, spiritually, & emotionally from a miscarriage. Was having all sorts of relationship issues (love, family, & friends), an identity crisis, major anger at God about a lot of things and on top of that, people were expecting me to make plans about what I wanted to do post college. So yeah there was a lot going on in my life. But as a future social worker I realize the necessity of good mental health, so even though I wanted to shut down (even more than i already had), I sought therapy. My counselor at the time definitely helped me through a lot & gave me a lot of tools that I could use for the rest of my life when dealing with things. Well one of the tools she was a huge fan of was little "reminders". (i don't really know what it was called). But it's like affirmations & things that you want to constantly remind yourself of, you kinda write it on a post it or index card & put it somewhere visible that you'll come into contact with on a daily basis.

Well last night I was cleaning my room (i know, finally) & tucked inside an old envelope somewhere I found one of my "reminders" that I wrote to myself. I don't know when I wrote it, & I don't remember exactly what was going on in my life. But it was in all my Salisbury stuff so it had to have been written at least 2-3 years ago. I was completely blown away when I read it because it can DEFINITELY be applied to my life RIGHT NOW!!! It's so funny because God always shows up when you need Him. At times I feel completely at my wits end & He'll show up in some kinda way that will remind me...He's got this :)

Anyway, this is what I found.....

"Monique,
It's okay to admit that you're hurting. It doesn't make you any less strong. It's time for you to get your life under control again. The enemy is just trying to use this situation against you because he knows your desire to get closer to God....don't give him that power!!! God loves you. Your family & friends love you. You are fearfully & wonderfully made and God has invested something so wonderful in you. ...his spirit. Stay positive, steadfast & unmoveable. This is only a test and you are going to pass it!!! But above all things...remember the most imoprtant thing.....FORGIVE YOURSELF.
I love you,

-Self"

*drops mic*