Pity Party...table for one....

So the past 30days. Life punched me in my face, pulled my ponytails, called me fat and then stole my lunch money. Not for real obviously but it's been a rough month. And if you know me, then you know my coping skills are pretty non-existent at times. So i went back to what's comfortable....comfort eating & self-imposed isolation.(I know, like i said, my coping skills need work!) But I usually only do that momentarily though until I can gather my thoughts. This time tho sadly, it just so happened to last a month. But for the sake of my bank account, waistline, & sanity I unfortunately must end my pity party. It was great while it lasted but umm yeah the show must go on.

So now that I've had time to adjust & regain my footing. Guess I'm ready to get back at this life thing. Research some things....work toward some goals....try to make some dreams happen. Ya know, the usual. I put as a FB status a while back that life changes whether ur ready or not....all u can do is put on your seatbelt & enjoy the ride. *blah*

Anywho, I did learn a few things in the midst of my party tho....I shall share.

* Don't look for others to be happy for you...learn how to be your own cheerleader..... You may be super excited about a brand new purse that you bought. I mean, you might be SOOO proud of this purse that you saved & spent your hard earned money to buy & you just think it's the best purse ever. But then someone will see your purse and be like "oh, this is the purse that you were talking about. It's aight I guess". Do NOT let someone's poor reaction to something you are HAPPY about & PROUD of, to change the way you feel about it. Which leads me to my next lesson I learned....

*"Everybody has an opinion. doesn't mean everyone's is worth listening to..." Quote courtesy of Demetria "Belle" Lucas (click on the link to read her blog.) Guess it's something that I REALLY need to learn. My entire life I've struggled with being accepted by people, only doing things I think people will approve of, & conversely, being afraid to do stuff because i'm AFRAID of what people will say. But at the end of the day...that's not really living my life if I allow the opinions (because that's just what it is, it's not rule, law, or fact, but jst an opinion) of others to outweigh the opinion of the one who matters most....myself! (Besides God of course). I'll get there one day...knowing is half the battle. Doing is the other half....sooo like I said...I'm getting there :)

* In times of "crisis"...you def learn who you can count on...Ok, now this one I knew pre-pity party....It just needed reiteration.

* I don't think about ALL the consequences of my actions before I do them... not cool at all. I mean, I consider consequences...but just not all of them. Paying for quite a few of my actions these days. But hey, it is what it is. Learning the lesson & moving forward....nothing else to do.

There are a few more things I learned, but i'm not quite ready to share yet because then it'd involve a bit of self-disclosure and there are some things i'm not quite ready to share with the blogosphere (soon tho, I promise). Anyway, back on the horse...back to life....excited about some things...nervous about some others. New chapters beginning....some quite possibly ending.....LIFE happening!

But it's gonna be alright :)