The Race

The past week has definitely had it's share of ups & downs. Lots of frustrations. I missed a couple of workouts...& beat myself up about it. I went to happy hour and had some wings & fries...& beat myself up about it! I didn't focus on any of the good things that I did...like how consistent my workouts have been & how good I've been doing on my eating. I jst kept focusing on all the things I thought I was doing WRONG! All the things I felt like I could've been doing BETTER!

So had a talk w/my SOS. & he rlly put things into perspective for me. I'm doing WONDERFUL! like no bull. I'm doing a GREAT job. I go to the gym at least 4days a week (albeit i've only been going to the gym for 2 1/2wks but still, takes dedication to go to the gym and ALONE at that!). I'm conscious of the things that I eat, & if i do eat something that I feel like I shouldn't, then i feel that guilt about it. that's so much better than A LOT of ppl...big OR small.

I'm going to get frustrated on this journey. It's a given. It's tough. If anyone tries to tell me that I shouldn't be frustrated, or that it's not a hard thing to lose weight. Then they're lying to me. I kind of lost momentum in the last couple of months, But i'm back in this. I'm committed. I want to be healthier. I want to have nicer (& less expensive)clothes. & jst overall feel better about ME!...all of ME!

So after our talk, he got a text. It went something like this:

"A horse doesn’t knows why it runs in the race. It runs because of the pain caused by the lashes (beatings) of it's rider… Life is a race. God is your rider. So if u r in pain then think...God wants you to win!!! Keep running!!"

MAN OH MAN was that the confirmation i needed to KEEP GOING!!! So that gave me my 2nd wind for the 2nd half of the week. I upped my workouts (even doing 3.5miles one day (btwn elliptical/treadmill/outdoors walking!!) & my workouts for the rest of the week were intense! & i've stayed on track w/my eating (except Sunday but i still didn't go overboard).

So this morning, as i'm drinking my first 72oz jug of water (goal for the week is to drink 144-168oz daily) and thinking about the cardio i'm gonna get in for the rest of the week & planning my meals for when I go grocery shopping tmrw, I decided to check my daily devotion. Wanna kno what the topic was???

"RUNNING THE RACE!!" [[insert HALLELUJAH right about here]]. Her scripture reference for the day was:

Acts 20:24 – However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace.

MY.GOD.IS.INCREDIBLE.

the writer of the devotion is also on a weight loss journey. & has reached a point of frustration. then she had an epiphany. maybe her job was never to lose TONS of weight. Maybe He chose her to begin her journey at this time to serve as a testament to others. She was too focused on NUMBERS. Pounds lost. Maybe her focus was supposed to be showing how by GOD'S GRACE she's able to commit to eating healthy & staying active for as long as she has (4months).

God is so awesome! This gives me another motivation for those days when I feel like "what's the point?" Yes, the #1 goal of this journey is to lose weight & live a healthier lifestyle. But maybe, just maybe...i'm supposed to serve as a living testament for others of WHAT'S POSSIBLE!! I have family, college & high school friends, random FB friends, all sending me messages telling me how I inspire them. Just by simply doing ME. That's enough to keep me running this race......

on ur mark. get set. go♥