Short end of the stick....

You ever feel like you've always gotten the short end of the stick? That all of the things you want...or think you want...are out of your grasp. Or you get a hold of it but then someone comes & does a karate chop on you & it forces you to drop it. Yeah that's how i feel. My whole life...I've only wanted a few things. Didn't think I was asking for much. And as an adult I've done almost all that i can to make those things come to pass...but yet at the end of the day....I'm still empty handed. I try not to spend so much time focusing on the things that I've lost. Because then I'll miss out on the blessings of all the things that I do have. But it's the human side of me to want to grieve for my "losses." I'm working hard to overcome my "it's not fair" syndrome. Don't want God to think I don't appreciate the things that he's done for me thus far & all of my blessings. But at the end of the day...it really would be nice to just have things work out in my favor. I feel like I've had enough life/learning experiences. I just want...happiness.

OK. pity party over.