Focus on the positive....

I spend a lot of time focusing on the things that I think that i'm doing wrong on this journey. Which is a stupid statement in itself because who's to tell me that I'm doing anything wrong? & I'm not accountable to anyone but myself. But I digress. So I've decided on this lovely (sarcasm) Monday morning, to focus on a few (jst a few) positive things that have resulted from this journey, seeing as how i'm almost at the 6 month mark.

Well, the biggest thing is that i'm down 22lbs. (I'll wait while you applaud.)





Ok enough, sit down. You're making me blush. Yeahhhh I'm proud of those 22lbs. Not sure if they're showing (although people said they are). It could probably be more than 22 had I not taken those 2months off. Oh wait, positive things. Yup 22. Coincidentally the same number I need to lose to be comfortably out of the 300's. I'm pretty sure when the day comes that I'm out of the 300's I'm going to run butt naked through my neighborhood. But probably at like 3am when no one is awake. lol. I haven't been under 300 since high school. Let that statement soak in. Sad.

Anyway, let's see what other positive changes I've made so far.

~I've become pretty conscious of the way that I eat. I've learned how to measure & weigh my foods. (you'll be surprised at how much you are actually eating). It's actually not a bad thing. & I think twice about the decisions I make at restaurants. & if i overindulge...that little thing called Guilt kicks in. VERY good thing. Keeps me accountable.

~Even though I'm not hitting the gym as hard as I was back in early June, i'm still somewhat active. I have to remember that I used to be a couch potato so any activity is MAJOR!

~I've stopped wearing my spanx. idk if that has to do with the journey or the unbearable 100+ degree temps we've had this summer lol. Either way, it's been 3wks since i've stopped wearing spanx daily. (Still wear for certain outfits) & i absolutely love my jiggly parts =D ((altho I am thinking of hosting a Death to Spanx party this weekend, all are invited))

~Will power. Self Control. Delayed Gratification. Self Sacrifice. Commitment. I've struggled with these 5 things for yearssssss. & I'm definitely learning how to incorporate these things into my new life.

There's so much more I'm learning & experiencing. It's kind of hard to put into words. So those were jst the major things. It's a wonderful journey. It's tough. But worth it. I'm worth it. You're worth it. The outpouring of support that I've been receiving from my family, coworkers, friends, & thru Facebook is amazing. To know that i'm inspiring people simply by doing something that's important to me is a wonderful feeling. I try not to focus on whether or not people truly mean it or if they're waiting to see me fall. I'd drive myself nuts that way. I'm pretty sure 87.6% of the feedback i'm getting is genuine. & that's all that matters.

6 months ago I didn't think that I could make any changes to my life. I mean, I've been fat my whole life. This is all I know. All I knew. But all it took was that desire to WANT to change. Then you'll figure out what needs to be done to make it happen. What's working for me, might not work for you. So it's up to you to try stuff out & see what fits.

I tell people, my goal is not to be a stick. I don't want to be a size 6. My body isn't built for that. I'd just like reach my goal of 200lbs. To start. Then maybe i'll attempt to drop to 180. but that's my MINIMUM!! The Star Jones/Crackhead look doesn't work on me. My round face is my trademark.

Anywho, thanks for reading.

I'm not where I want to be...but thank God i'm not where I was.

20lbs -- July 12, 2010
50lbs -- December 12, 2010
100lbs --August 12, 2011
GOAL -- February 12, 2012

and go♥ :)