yay

i walked home from work today. mapquest says it's 2.1 miles from my job to my house. which is about right since it takes like 7mins by car. It took me 45minutes...i only stopped once & that was @ the halfway mark to get a bottle of water from the Royal Farms store. I was slightly out of breath but that's also due to me having a cold/allergies & walking past so many freshly mulched yards & piles of pollen laying in the street. lol but other than that, it was a nice refreshing walk. I can't wait to do it again. i'm thinking for now i'll do every other day. less pressure & less of a toll on my body. hopefully one day i'll be able to walk it everyday (just hope i don't melt in the summer lol)

i was somewhat self concious (sp) because i felt like every car that went past was looking @ me. but like my Jassy poo said "were they really staring or did you THINK they were staring". so i gotta get over that insecurity that ppl are watching & judgin me. I'm doing this for myself....whatever this is...to get healthy? to lose weight? idk. but i'm doing it for me, bcuz i'm the only one that has to face "me" in the mirror every day. & I need to be able to love what I see...all of what I see.

so yay for small steps. praying for increased motivation & commitmment. that's it for now.......too many other thoughts to blog. gotta get them organized first lol.