support....

k so today was a bit of a test for me but i think i did pretty good. i went to applebees today & i absolutely LOVE their buffalo wings! i was looking at the menu and they had some good things that were under 10points on the menu but nothing that i really wanted. i wanted a cheeseburger or some wings! in the end i settled on a grilled chicken sandwich...mind u i still got it with fries & bacon on it. but baby steps is what i keep reminding myself. i saved about 20points by not getting buffalo wings & i saved about 11 points by not getting a burger! it's going to take some time, it's only been 3days!!!!

i was feeling kinda bad about going over my points (although i compensated by only eating an apple & string cheese for dinner...i know not good but i just didn't wanna add another 10-15points by eating a full dinner). so i decided to take advantage of the WW message boards. and i sooo see why CM is obsessed w/her boards. It was so nice to have people who had been in my shoes, who didn't know me from adam and were able to offer me genuine support, motivation, and encouragement. so i'll be posting there a lot more because i need to know that i'm not in this alone.

exercise-wise...i'm trying to do too much too soon. i didn't finish the 1 mile walk, and that's only because i started doing the 2mile & it's a bit more intense than the one mile. so i NEED to do the 1mile for the rest of the week & maybe until next week...then i can do the 2mile and start doing other things. but for now i need 2 be slow & steady...sooo calm the eff down Monique!!! lol

back to work tomorrow. & this hurts my heart. i've thouroughly enjoyed this last week off from work. & i know it's gonna be sooo crazy when we go back to work tomorrow. I can't even sit here & pretend like it's gonna be nice to see everybody, because honestly i can do without about 85% of the ppl that i encounter on a daily basis. (that's probably rude but this is my truth lol).

that's it for now. maybe one of these days i'll get back into blogging my feelings & emotions the way i used to on myspace. lol

buh-bye♥