gotta do better

this week has definitely been a tough one. I've had lots of good moments. bad moments. What the f*ck moments. omg no u didn't moments. & two RIP moments (RIP Barney Wright & Becky E)

I went over my points i think 3days this week & i only walked 1 day. i'm really disappointed in myself because I was doing sooo good & then I allowed myself to become preoccupied mentally & emotionally and it set me back. But all I can do is learn from this week and work harder to do better.

I've been trying to blog about this new "friend" that I have but it's so unbelievable what's going on that I can't even put it into words yet. Maybe one day i'll be able to express into words how it's making me feel. But for now I gotta get my head outta the clouds, get my mind back on straight and get my emotions in control.

This week however has definitely showed me who I can count on when I'm in need. Whether I just need a kind word, confirmation on some things, someone to bitch to, or someone to tell me that it's gonna be OK! I have a unique set of girlfriends & I love all of them dearly. They keep me grounded, encourage me, and even if they don't realize it, they definitely put me into my place.

I fell this week in a lot of areas. A lot. I've made so much progress through the past few weeks & even the past few years. And I can't allow one week to just negate all that.

So like the song says...we fall down. BUT WE GET UP! & I'm going to do better......